what causes emotions?
sadness especially. it isn't only the tears that flow out involuntarily, there is this feeling in the heart, an indescribable feeling. something like the heart suddenly becomes the brain and it controls you, it becomes heavier and tighter, comes with a tinge of sourness and and.. argh, i cant explain.
ok i admit i am emotional, but its not that i want to be right. i cant control emotions. no matter how hard i try to fight back my tears, its just a matter of time, it will eventually accumulate and flow down. and of coz i am not like that all the time, its just these few days. i miss my brother, i miss the people in aussie. but definitely more of bro coz i am closer to him. and it only happens when i am alone at home. so i conclude
being alone sucks! it causes me to reminisce the past plus feel unprotected and vulnerable. my bro is part of my life and without him, it just doesnt feel right, like something is missing. my life feels emptier and suddenly no one is there to guide me anymore.
argh, all i have to do is get used to it again. i know i can coz i've done it before.
thank god i have
alvin. he always
makes everything better.
LIFE GOES ONi wanna be
emo.
NOT